Looming

Have you ever had a feeling that something bad is going to happen?  Like a giant shoe is hovering over, waiting to come down and squash you like a bug.  I have had that feeling for a while now.

My giant hovering shoe is the very real possibility of having a stroke.

• I have been having short bursts of a-fib and am back on beta-blockers.  I see my cardiologist on Monday.  Did you know that 1 in 6 strokes are caused by a-fib?  And an a-fib stroke is more likely to be the severely debilitating kind.
• I have high blood pressure.  High blood pressure increases your stroke risk.
• I have high cholesterol.  High cholesterol increases your stroke risk.
• I have a HUGE family history of stroke.  Family history of strokes increases your stroke risk.
• I am overweight.  Being overweight increases your stroke risk.
• I have a history of blood clots.  Blood clot = stroke.

So as you can see, my fear is not unwarranted.  Stroke is a very real possibility.  And after seeing my Mom waste away lying in a nursing home for 2 years following a stroke, I know a stroke is not how I want to go out.

Allof this has had me in quite a funk lately.  Plus beta-blockers make me feel bad which adds to the funk.

So I would appreciate prayers..good vibes..light..whatever you have.  Thank you, my friends!